RAISE IT UP!

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Opinions that disturb my peace.

I hear so many people say "I respect the opinions I don't agree with, let's agree to disagree" I do respect everyone as a beautiful expression of God, but I cant escape a feeling deep in my soul that some opinions are more loving than others. Its hard not to get angry when I hear opinions that hurt the rights of others and curtail freedom and expansion. It so hard for me not to fall into ego and scream, "BUT THAT'S JUST NOT NICE OR LOVING OR RESPECTFUL OF YOUR FELLOW HUMANS", but then if I do that, I am contributing to the very thing that causes me upset.

So ... I ask G.O.D. for clarity, for compassion and for more love and forgiveness

(and my ego says "yeah and I also pray they realize I am right dammit )

Challenges and Calls to Love

I think think one of the hardest challenges is when I have great love for someone, go out of my way to help a dream come true for them, do everything in my power to make sure I keep my word, treat them with respect and love, and yet somehow they end up having negative feelings toward me because I didn't do it sooner, or because I expressed a little frustration along the way, or because I couldn't do more and give them something else they wanted, or because I didn't do it the way they wanted. Its those times when all the love in my heart is not enough proof. My best is still not meeting their expectations. Putting countless hours of blood sweat and tears into helping them achieve a dream goes out the window because they want to be hurt, and there is nothing I can do about it. I feel for the person I care about, it breaks my heart to know that they think I have hurt them, but I know it is not my fault. Its so hard to let go of the guilt. It has happened with more than one person in my life recently and you may ask " What are you doing to them? Maybe you need to look in the mirror and self assess Freddy" I honestly feel I have. I am not perfect, but I am a reasonable, loving, giving person who is truly interested in co-creation. Does this mean I cant say hurtful things or make blunders?No, but I am starting to understand that I need to take responsibility only for what is mine to change. I cannot control how someone else chooses to "create me" for themselves. I am still heartbroken, I am still battling guilt, I am still angry that I am being cast in this light, but the truth is bigger than these feelings. The truth is that I am not at fault. I am a physical being doing my best and I deserve the same compassion and understanding that I give. If someone cannot give me that in return, all I can do is keep giving it and understand that they don't know any other way out than to blame me. I cant try to convince anyone any longer. I have love in my heart. I choose forgiveness. I want to see them shine and fly and be happy, but I cant do anything about their feelings anymore, or judge myself anymore. I have too much good work to do. So, if you are one of those people who has chosen to judge and blame me, I love you and wish nothing but blessings upon you. I thank you for the opportunity to practice knowing my own worth and goodness is not dependent on you. I hope you know yours as well.

As Vulcans say - Live Long and Prosper !

Namaste

Absolutes

Interesting thought ... Whenever I judge a person, event, situation etc, whether it be in a positive or negative way, I often find that I soon have an experience that shows me that the opposite is ALSO true of that person, event, situation etc. It seems that there are no absolutes. It seems that the world is in a constant state of change and possibility only made distinct by our own thoughts about it. At first I found this realization scary, but now I find it to be a miracle...

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Lessons from Loss

... Something happened that I feel is a gross injustice. For the past 36 hours or so it has sent me into a tear filled spiral of depression, anger and self pity. It is highlighting every other struggle I have had recently, a bitter feeling of betrayal by someone I worked very hard for, the anti gay stuff in the media the stuff on Wall- Street. I was having trouble seeing any hope or light. I want to share the turning point. Maybe it will help someone else. When I feel that way, and I sit around asking why I feel that way and trying to fight it, I just feel stuck. Feelings are feelings , they are not who we are. When I just let sadness or anger or bitterness be there, and just notice them, when I observe what I am feeling I can start to see what it is trying to teach me and I just accept it as a fact and move toward a better feeling. Maybe its OK to be a little sad at a loss of something important to me, maybe its OK to be angry at injustice. What is not OK is to become those feelings. Fighting with them, asking for justification of them etc. is only holding them in place. I get stuck when I think I either need to be miserable or "all better". It is not always that black and white, sometimes you have to be willing to be in the grey and move through it to something better. It is OK to be grey knowing that what you are at the core is peace and that you are on your way to clarity of that truth. So, if you feel like I have, It's OK; FEEL angry, FEEL sad, dont BE angry or BE sad. Realize its just an emotion trying to show you something, don't allow your actions to flow from that place, the emotions are showing you what does not feel good, move toward what does ! ... What CAN you do about misfortune and injustice ? Refuse to be a victim, take the actions you CAN take and DECIDE that even though you are angry sad bitter etc, You are a wonderful light of God and that it WILL get better. - Namaste

Happy Birthday to me and "Eyes of Love"

It’s ready! My new single, Eyes of Love is ready for download! Happy Birthday Me!
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Namaste !